An Invincible Life-Somehow I survived!!!!!
IT is said that it is always the darkest before the dawn.
B.TECH degree in hand with CGPA of 8.9 and already placed in campus placement had already opened the dreams which Raj has dreams of in his career. But it was shattered when the joining into the placed firm was delayed for indefinite time, not sure when that was to happen. Raj didn't wish to go to his hometown because of situation over there. So he decided to move to Bangalore to start his career in couple of days. He has his cousin who was staying in Bangalore, so he thought he would get in there settle in for someday and start his job hunt.
Prior to departure he has already conveyed the same to his cousin, who said he can comedown to his place and stay till he gets a job. With delight and excitement Raj decided to move to Bangalore. The day finally came when Raj boarded the BBSR-BANGALORE Prashanti Express to reach to his dreams. After a long journey of 32 Hrs Raj reached Bangalore, but he wasn't aware that the things aren't going to get easy.
From the platform, he called his cousin to get the details as his cousin was suppose to comedown to escort him to his place but wasn't there. He called couple of times the phone rang no response. Feeling hungry, Raj went to the refreshment room took a mid-day meal and waited on the platform. Few hours passed, Raj was looking at the people in the station and imagining "Every Year, many technocrats come to bangalore to fullfil their dream and he would be the next." Sitting patiently Raj's mind went into past: "It was the year of 2001 Month of September, when USA was shocked and on the same day Raj was. Day prior to the twin tower getting down to thrash in the midnight, Raj had experienced the dreadful news of sad demise of her mother. It was her dream for Raj to be a successful person and for which Raj was there on the Platform"
Raj was happy, as he was going near his dreams rather can say her Mother's dreams to be a successful person in life. He opened an old letter from his wallet and started reading it. This was the letter which Raj has recieved from an unknown person earlier who was not existing in this world. He carefully read the letter and was trying to relate the same with his current state of mind.
Soon it was evening, Raj called again to his cousin, he picked up the call and said he is busy in meeting and will call in 5 minutes and share the details. Raj waited for another hour, but he didn't recieved any call. He called again, but this time the phone was hung. Raj looked down to his wallet only 100 Rupees left. Raj said to himself "Nevermind! as bhai has said he would definitely come or will guide me to the place.". Time was running down, from evening it was Night 9'O clock but no response from his cousin. The very next moment he got a call from his cousin and it was like a short discussion.
Cousin-"Hey Raj! Sorry brother, I had to leave to Mysore urgently. I have already conveyed my room-mate about you, you can go down the place, I will text you the address"
Before Raj could say anything he hung up the call. Raj was thinking with only few bucks left how he was supposed to go to his cousin's place, anyways he decided to go after recieving the address.
From morning, Raj has recieved multiple calls from his father, but everytime he said "bhai ke saath hoon tension na lo". He didn't want to convey this to his father who was already a BP patient.
Somehow, he boarded the bus worth ticket of Rs 10/- to marathalli, where his cousin use to stay. After 1 hr of journey he reached his cousin's place. It was Friday, and night 11:00PM, reaching the flat he rang the bell. A kinky guy in shorts came and opened the door. Raj gave him his introduction, for some seconds that fellow looked at me like a prey.
He then said "I am not informed about this, I don't know you how come you visit this flat.". Saying this he banged the door. Raj called his cousin to confirm the address which he had received as a text, unfortunately he didn't picked up. Raj again rang the bell, the same person opened the door and started yelling at him and said
"Yahan sharif log rehte hai... tujhe bhik mangna hai to kahin aur ja..".
Raj:"aap ek baar Kumar ko call to karo woh meri pehchan batadenge...".
Other Person: "Kumar bola hai koi agar akar puche to ghar me ghusne mat dena, ek bhikari ayega usko bhaga dena."
Raj: "aap ek baar call karke pucho to sahi.."
Other person: "Puchna kya hai woh yahi andar hai, khud puch le"
The other guy in loud voice asked "Arey Kumar koi tera bhai aaya hai milne"
From inside "Bola tha na koi bhai wai nahi hai mera... bhaga us *slang* usko idhar se.. sharifon ko pareshan karna inki adat si ho gayi hai."
Listening this Raj was shaken and the other person pushed Raj aside, Raj fell down and injured his nose, blood started comming out.
Raj stood up and said "Sorry! May be I am the bhikari who has lots of expectation and came here."
Listening this the other person said,
"Bhag yahan se sale... sara maja kirkira kar diya... ruk bulata hoon security ko"
Two people came heavy in built and dragged Raj out of the building and pushed him into the road. Raj got injuries and his mobile was near to damage. He picked his belongings and move ahead. A lake was nearby that area, he went there and sat. Raj was terrified, he looked at his watch it was night 1'O clock. Tears welled down from his eyes. His initial journey to the dream path has been dug with people who use to call them "sharif".
Raj sat near the lake till 5AM in the morning, and then moved ahead. He boarded the same bus with which he came to his cousin's place and reached station. Raj was having nothing left in his pocket, only Rs.10. He sat in the platform was looking at the trains passing by. With the Rs.10/- he made a STD call to his father and thought to say everything, but he didn't. Because when heard his father's voice, he heard his father saying to someone in background "my son has reached Bangalore will definitely find a job for him, I am happy for him". All of sudden Raj's eye were moist, he only said "I am good. Don't call me for couple of days till I take a new SIM card over here."
Raj's mind was puzzled with lot of things, last night's fear and the behaviour of his own kin and shattered everything. That day Raj spent in platform, feeling hungry nothing left in his pocket, he went to the water tap and stretched his hand to drink water. His hand was paining like hell because of injuries but somehow he managed to drink.
Sitting at the end of platform Raj burst into tears and said to himself "I have to survive. For the dreams I had seen, for the dreams my mother has seen, for the happiness my father is looking from me. I have to survive. I have to live an invincible life." It was again midnight, Raj slept on the platform bench, but soon after the RPF folks woke him up and drove him out of Station.
Raj went near the subway opposite to station, and sat there. Bangalore's Majestic subway is also famous for transgenders who work as sex workers. Raj was upset and crying, with clothes torn, scars in hand, swelling nose he was sitting with head down where he heard a manly voice "Idhar kya kar raha hai?" Raj looked up and saw a transgender standing next to him.
Raj was so emotional at the moment as someone asked for his well being, he narrated the whole story to the transgender. The transgender listened calmly, offered him a "Dosa" and said,
"Tu khale pehle! Har raat ke baat subah hoti hai. Me itna kehti hoon, tu bahut agey jayega and dekh kal subah tere liye ek nayi subah hogi.. tu jab tak kha raha hai me tere hathon ko cream laga deti hoon, aur tu dar mat maine bola na teri manjil tujhe milegi bahut jald milegi. Ghabra mat!! Jindagi hi khalnayak hai"
The transgender started singing a song from movie Khalnayak, and Raj was listening to the song very carefully.
As the transgender said, it happened the same. At morning 5AM Raj went to freshen up (he was given Rs 100 by the transgender when s/he left), took a bath and decided to go back to his hometown, even though Rs 100 was not the fare in general to go to his hometown but Raj decided to take the risk.
But he never knew there was someone who was waiting for him "his luck!!!"
When, he was near the railway ticket counter, he saw a guy looking familiar. Yes it was familiar, it was Raj's college mate Mohley Singh, who had came to Bangalore as he was about to join a firm. Raj greeted him, both had conversation for some time and then both went to the bus stand.
They waited for their bus, and Raj was recollecting all the thing which had happened with him in last 48Hrs or more, and all of sudden he realised the wish of the transgender was fruitful.
The time has been long, but that has changed a Raj a lot, he understood what life real is, what people are and whom you don't know plays a vital role in your life.
That was really "A Survival but done in invincibility.". Raj whenever thinks about that time, few lines sang by the transgender always tickles his mind.
"
Main bhi sharafat se jeeta magar
Mujhko shareefon se lagata tha dar
Sabko pata tha main kamazor hoon
Main isalie aaj kuch aur hoon
"